"Reflux part 2"

As you can tell from the title of this post, Elijah Brooks' reflux started acting up again about a week ago.  I could tell that things were starting to go downhill last week when he started screaming during and after every feeding.  It is absolutely heartbreaking to see him hurting and scared.  All I can do is hold him during the episode and whisper in his ear that it's all going to be okay.  Jay and I decided that we needed to take him to the doctor to find out what we needed to do to help him.  Well, when they weighed him, we were all surprised to see that he weighs over 14 lbs now.  The weight gain is a wonderful thing and we are so grateful that in the midst of the reflux, he is still gaining weight.  Anyway, his doctor said that his current dosage of Zantac was no longer working because it is very sensitive to weight fluctuations. Basically, the medicine couldn't keep up with his weight gain.  So, she increased his dosage on Monday.  Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday were just awful.  My precious Mom had driven up from Alabama to help me while Jay was on a skiing trip with our youth group from church.  She was a tremendous help...., she has such a servant's heart.  Dad, if you are reading this, thank you for sharing her with me for a week.  Jay came home from church Wednesday night only to find me in tears on the couch.  Thursday morning, I woke up early and went and sat on the kitchen floor and just poured my heart out to the Lord.  (Don't ask why I was sitting on the kitchen floor because honestly, I don't know)!!   My exact prayer was, "Lord, please bring peace to our household again. Please bring peace and comfort to my precious baby. Please Lord come quickly to help him".  

I am truly overwhelmed by what the Lord has, in HIS grace and mercy, done for our family.  For the past 2 days, Elijah Brooks has had NO reflux!  I truly believe that the Lord listened to my prayer and poured His mercy upon us because the reflux subsided the very moment I prayed.  He brought peace to our family and comfort to my baby.  I have no idea what tomorrow will hold for Elijah Brooks' reflux, it may return, it may not..., but I do know that my faith has grown tremendously through all of this.   Our Savior is not some genie in a bottle that we can ask things of and always get what we want...., I know that.  I know that He does not always answer us in the way that we want..., but He will always answer in the way that is best for us.  I find myself more often than not, saying as Peter said, "Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief".  I do believe that the Lord will hear my prayers, but more often than not, I contradict the very thing that I say I believe by worrying, being anxious fearful, and not trusting in God's goodness and His Sovereignty.  God is Sovereign..., even over reflux!  I must remember this truth if his reflux flares up tomorrow.  I am so grateful for relief for Elijah Brooks..., even if it's only for a day. 

I do thank God for showing me yet again how much He loves me and for being so compassionate towards a mother, who prayed on behalf of her son and whose tears fell upon  his face.