"Call to Prayer"

As mentioned in the previous post, my tendonitis is back in my hands.  I was better for about 5 months and then about 8 weeks ago, I started to notice it was flaring up again. I tried to self-treat it but finally broke down and returned to the doctor today.  I heard news that I really didn't want to hear unfortunately.  I will return the day after tomorrow to be fitted for "immobilization splints" which will be almost cast-like and will completely immobilize my thumbs.  They are fitting me for my left hand and my right hand.  My left hand is much worse than my right, so I may just start off wearing one of them. However, my fear is that I will "over compensate" with the right hand and get it in the same shape as the left...., so I really don't know what to do. 

I have cried all day today...., literally.  I am panicking about how to care for Elijah Brooks.  How will I change his diaper without being able to use my thumbs?  How will I dress him and button the buttons?  How will I lift him up?  How will I put him in his carseat? All of you mothers can understand how I might panic about this. Not to mention, housework???  What if they don't get better and I have to have surgery?  That was mentioned today...., yeah, I had alittle "freak out" moment at the doctor's office. I kind of got a taste of how to do this with my other braces back in December, but those were flexible braces and allowed me to still use my thumbs to do these tasks. This will be different.  I know that my hands need to rest and this is the only way, but I am so afraid.  I am mad too...., just angry.  I am frustrated.  I am really having a tough time with this.  

I am trying to keep a positive outlook on this and believe that God will not give me more than I can handle...., God help me believe that promise.  Right now, this seems like a huge mountain in front of me and I need yall to please pray for me.  Pray for my attitude. Pray for me to have patience and learn how to manage my daily routine without the use of my hands.  Pray that I won't take out my frustrations on my sweet husband who is already helping me so much. Pray for Elijah Brooks' heart...., that he would be filled with the fruits of the Spirit and that he would help mommy during this tough time. Pray for healing. 

I probably will take some time off from blogging and emailing...., at least until I figure out what I am doing.  It is painful to type, and I shouldn't be typing this much..., but I wanted to let yall know what is going on so that you can be in prayer for us.  

Maybe I will at least post some pictures of my new "accessories"!  

Thank you so much...., we love you all.  May God be glorified through this trial.